Busy Week. . .

I would like to talk about my past week with you all, and what happened during my time of absence . . .

On Friday, I went with some friends to a concert. And as I’m standing in the nosebleeds, a thought slips into my mind.

If I were to jump, could I make it over the railing. And if I did, would I die from the impact of hitting the ground/seats/people below. 

Maybe. . . 

And I’m standing in the sixth row up, in the nosebleeds, with friends, and I’m thinking about jumping over the safety rails, and hitting the ground beneath me.

This thought tempts me every time I’m up somewhere high, and that’s one of the reasons I don’t like heights.

I don’t like feeling this way, and I don’t tell anyone I have felt this way. I don’t take this sort of thing lightly, and I want to talk to others, but I don’t know how to tell them, or how they would take it.

When that thought came to mind, it made me feel heavy, my chest felt hollow, but filled with water. I held my breath, even though it hurt to.

I don’t think I would have actually jumped (ever), but I thought about it. I had to sit down and take a breather, because I felt light-headed for a moment.

Thinking and feeling that way scared me.

Have you ever felt or thought this way?

 

 

And that’s that kitty cat! Cheers!

Also! This week, I’m talking subject requests, so if you have anything you want me to talk/write about, or ask a question about something I’ve written. That’s what I’m doing this week, so leave a comment down below, and I’ll check it out.

7 thoughts on “Busy Week. . .

  1. It’s an impulse to have that fear or is it the fear to have that impulse? Whichever it is , I know what it is , I’ve got something like that too but not on heights.
    Well for me the best thing is to avoid heights, not because you could jump but to avoid that fear which is so uncomfortable.
    Take care

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  2. I don’t seem to be afraid of heights, but I do have such thoughts, too. Not necessarily that I want to jump, but what would happen if I was to slip, or be pushed, or whatever. Not sure what brings those thoughts in me. I don’t dwell on them too much, because it is partially curiosity and partially the writer in me, who likes to come up with various scenarios.

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  3. yep i think it. the trigger is different though, when i do things that are contrary to my being human: something animalistic, or immoral, or beyond reason; out of impulse in so saying regret- regret for living because of a certain moment or a series of them. ya, its natural.

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    1. someone said something: ” as long as we are above the ground, worry will be our companion”. dying is tempting, yet boring for you won’t get another shot and typically be forever blinded to the possibilities, yet in living (although complicated) always brings us to the concept of hope, for you don’t know what will happen( living is being in uncertainty). i think all of us, deal with the existential, the why should i continue on? its something even our forefathers had to go through, yet they are the very reason why we progressed as a people in the first place. so, in so saying, the obvious thing to say is no , you are no alone physically, emotionally and mentally. we are all whether you like it or no , in this together. Cheers.

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